A very scary thing....

This remodeling thing. I am working on the plan to gut and remodel my kitchen. I have a contractor, a floor plan, cabinets and flooring and countertops picked out, and I am scared to death it won't fit my budget. I really need to do this if I am ever going to sell this house. I MUST get rid of this blasted pink tile floor that is half...yes HALF...my house! No one will buy this house with an 80's pink tile floor with broken tile and huge grout lines. Dirty white grout lines at that. I really need to do this for ME. I cannot stand this kitchen! Small, no cabinets, all my dishes in ONE cabinet all stacked on top of each other, one countertop that gets loaded with junk the minute I walk in the door, cheap, crappy sink with drain plumbing underneath that has to be held up with an empty coffee can or it leaks, crappy hardware, broken cabinet doors.........do ya get the idea that I don't like my kitchen anymore???? hee hee

I should hear from the contractor early next week. I am terrified I won't be able to afford it and my bubble will be popped. I kinda like my bubble. I have been blowing this bubble for about 5 years now. It's attached to me. I am attached to it. I WANT A NEW KITCHEN.

Instead of sitting here whining about what I want, I should be working on the elevation drawings for my cabinets so I can get it sent off to Mr. Yoder to see what Amish made cabinets would cost me. His quality workmanship is evident in Mo's house....he made all her tables in the livingroom and down in the "media room". Gorgeous stuff. I hope and pray he is cheaper than stock cabinets in the home centers. I would love to have his handywork in my home.

Oh well....back to reality. I gotta go clean up that miserable kitchen. I made a mess yesterday.